It's Monday Morning in China.

Which means my twins are two years old.

They are not with their family who loves and wants them so badly.

They are not with each other.

Mostly likely, they have no idea that on September 13, 2008, a very brave woman gave birth pre-maturely to two tiny baby girls.

That today is the celebration of their birth.

For reasons unknown, she kept those babies for a month before leaving them together to be found. She took great care to leave a note with their birthdate.

At one month old, they weight under 4 pounds.

They are survivors.

They are brave.

And even though they cannot fathom what a Mommy and Daddy will be, or what it is like to be loved, snuggled, and cared for..... they soon will.

Honestly, that is the only thing that helps me keep it together.

Soon. Very soon.

And every milestone will be celebrated.
Every need will be met.

Every cry will be attended to.

If they can only know right now, that  a world away, their Mommy cries for them.

Her arms ache to have them overflowing with twinny goodness.

Their sisters pray for them daily.

That they make a wish on every dandelion that "our twins will be home soon."

That their brothers want updates on every single step of the process.

That tonight as they were waking up in China alone, their family sang Happy Birthday to them.
Soon they will know how much they are loved.

Celia and Sofia,
My brave, sweet princesses. I cannot wait to hold you. To kiss those precious cheeks. I want you to know that Mommy and Daddy are celebrating you both today.
You will NEVER, ever have another birthday without the love of your family.
I have a special person who will visit you today.
She promised to whisper Happy Birthday in your ear.
I can only hope you can understand that we are coming.
Soon.
Until then, I hope her snuggles will comfort you on your birthday.

Happy 2nd Birthday sweet babies!!

We love you with all our hearts,
Mommy and Daddy


Comments

  1. NavhelowifeSeptember 13, 2010 at 9:32 AM

    I'll join in singing Happy Birthday (although a day late) and know that all the ones to come will matter more than the two they missed with you.

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  2. AnonymousSeptember 13, 2010 at 11:27 AM

    Beautifully written, and filled with so much love. What llucky little girls they will be.

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  3. DonnaSeptember 13, 2010 at 2:24 PM

    I know how much your heart hurts today not being with your babies. Praying for peace as you go throughout the day thinking of your precious littles.

    This is their last birthday without their forever family. Come on TA!!

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  4. MélissaSeptember 13, 2010 at 4:55 PM

    Happy birthday for the twins, it's the last so far of her familly.
    Mélissaxx

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  5. Tara AndersonSeptember 13, 2010 at 9:13 PM

    I've been thinking of you today. Happy Birthday to your precious little blessings! I know it's hard not being with them today, but I rejoice in knowing that SOON they will be with you everyday. Hugs and prayers to you...

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  6. ChristineSeptember 13, 2010 at 10:53 PM

    Happy Birthday!!! What a powerful post. They may not know today all the things you wrote about so beautifully, but one day, these words will bless them in an amazing way! Thinking of you on this very special day!!!

    Christine

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  7. UnknownSeptember 21, 2010 at 12:01 AM

    We wish you a belated Happy Birthday, Celia and Sofia. By the time we get to see you you will be settled into your new home and having the best of times with your two older sisters (and brothers!). We love you across the miles and look forward to welcoming you into our family. We are praying for you and your mom's and dad's upcoming trip to your homeland.
    Love, Grandma and Grandpa

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