The abyss of silence.

Well, THAT was short lived...

You rush around for 3 months getting all your documents compiled.

You drive to counties you have never heard of to get certificates for each notary. (We had TWO that were an hour and a half away. That's 3 hours round trip. And not in the same direction.)

You make a few mad dashes to the Secretary of States office while your husband circles the city waiting to pick you up on a street corner when you are done.

You excitedly stalk the mailman each day for something, ANYTHING you might be waiting for in regards to your adoption paperwork.

You cancel a day full of fun-filled plans with friends, because, DUH, a Fedex package is due to arrive with authenticated documents. No way are you leaving those on your porch for an hour.
NO. POSSIBLE. WAY.

And then the moment you have fervently waited for finally comes..... DTC.

And the SHEER BLISS associated with that lasts, for.... well, about 2.5 days.

Give or take an hour.

And then the realization hits you.... There is NOTHING ELSE to do, but WAIT.

For months on end.
With no idea how long it will actually be until your arms are full of  juicy twinny goodness.

All the while, your precious Sofia races toward toddlerhood without you.

And sweet Celia? She is making huge strides without her Momma and Daddy to cheer her on.

And although I have purposed to ENJOY the last summer of sanity, sleep and serenity.... it's hard.

I did my job, now somebody in China better do theirs.

Because it isn't just a stack of dossier documents sitting on their desk waiting to be processed.

Nope.

 It's a mama's love behind each and every one.


And I'm just aching to see my daughter's smile.

Comments

  1. Tara AndersonJune 18, 2010 at 5:10 PM

    I've noticed it's alot harder to wait during the "lulls" where there's really nothing going on. I'm sure I'll be in the "abyss" right along with you soon...hopefully within the next couple of weeks! :) Here's to hoping they process everything quickly and that you're on your way to China in no time...and that I'm in your travel group! :)

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  2. AnonymousJune 19, 2010 at 1:18 AM

    Waiting for anything is the hard part. When you can do nothing more, LET GOD. He will walk with you every step of the way. It's a little like childbirth, you just have to wait it out. I remember the days, weeks and months that we waited for Justin and Ryan. We first heard about the twins in March, so by my calculation you are in your second trimester. I know that your (our) babies are there and you are here, just hang in there, they will be worth the wait.
    G'ma

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  3. KahriJune 19, 2010 at 4:45 PM

    Praying this time goes by quickly (as quickly as possible!) and that your precious blessings are in your arms before you know it!

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  4. ChristineJune 21, 2010 at 4:50 PM

    I love this post....it is sooo true! We just became DTC, too. It felt so anti-climatic after all that work. But how sweet it is knowing that each day is a day closer to being united with our children. What is out of our hands in in our Father's hands and what is out of our control is so in His control. He is sovereign.....over each piece of paper, every hand that touches them, and each agency that shuffles them. Im praying for you and love to read your updates. The twins are absolutely beautiful!

    Christine
    http://web.me.com/cachterkirch/AchterkirchsAdventures/Welcome.html

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